7 years ago, when Chris and I stood on the City Stage of Kansas City's Union Station, there was a lot I thought I knew about marriage.
7 years ago I knew that I was marrying my best friend. I didn't know that my best friend would become so dear to me that his mere presence is the only thing that will often calm my worried heart.
I didn't know that I would look in his eyes at times when I feel tired, defeated, overweight, ugly, and see that to him I am still the only woman in the world.
I didn't know how hard we would learn to laugh at the silliest things, often requiring no words of explanation.
I didn't know how strong his hand would feel holding mine, when I was in labor with our oldest child. I didn't know how deeply that gift of parenthood would strengthen our bond and make my love for him grow ten-fold.
7 years ago, I didn't know what struggles we had yet to face, that he would lift my chin when I cried tears over the loss of pregnancies, grandparents, and failed dreams.
I didn't know he would find ways to make me smile in my very darkest moments, when my heart felt dead and my faith had given up.
They say hindsight is 20/20, and looking back on my life there are many, many things I would change. There is so much I could do better. There are two words I will never, ever take back. That "I do" that I said 7 years ago, I would say again. I would say it over and over, shouting it from the highest of heights, "I DO, I DO, I DO!"
Christopher William Jeska, you are still the love of my life. With you as my husband, we have overcome many obstacles, and I'm sure we will face many more. But there is no one in this world I would rather do life with.
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Tuesday, March 20, 2012
Purple finger nails
Yep. I'm still alive. Haven't blogged in...a few months??? I knew this day would eventually come. The day I suddenly realized it had been months since I'd posted and few people would remember I even had one of these things. Anyone remember Xanga? Myspace?
Well, I've put off posting much at all about my pregnancy. Every once in a while I'll make a facebook post about recent updates but I try not to too often. I remember how it felt when everyone around me was getting pregnant, and CONSTANTLY talking about it, while we were stuck trying and trying and trying. It was a jab in my heart every single time. A daily reminder of where I wanted to be but just wasn't. As a result, I've tried very hard to keep from doing the same things to dear friends of mine struggling with infertility in various forms.
On the other hand, I also want to relish in this precious time, and share some of the wonderful blessings I'm experiencing with my family and friends. I remember a few friends posting weekly surveys about how things have been progressing and I've decided to do the same, but much less frequent. This way, I have something I can look back on and *someday* show the little one too.
SO, here's my 24 (!!!!) week stats:
How far along: 24 weeks- the BIG milestone (not counting end of first trimester). From this point on, no matter what happens to me, in a major emergency, baby would likely be able to survive outside the womb!
Total Weight Gain: 8 pounds. I'm bummed...I didn't want to gain any weight. Why can't I have months of vomiting and weight loss like a normal pregnant person?
Stretchmarks: None that I've noticed...but I try not to look ;)
Sleep: Lots! I feel constantly exhausted, like I can never get enough sleep. I need lots of pillows these days to be nice and comfy
Best Moment This Week: Getting to see him again and know that he's a he for sure!
Movement: Finally started feeling movement from the outside a couple weeks ago, Chris got to feel Jude for the first time from the outside at about 22 1/2 weeks. I LOVE every little kick and squirm.
Gender: BOY!!!!
Labor Signs: Nada
Belly Button: Still in. Probably will be the whole way through, it was with Benton
What I Miss: Energy
What I am Looking Forward to: Starting to put the room together! I think we've FINALLY chosen bedding (after changing our minds AGAIN!) so I'm ready to get to work!
Milestones: Baby is now just over a pound and about a foot long (and my uterus is the size of a soccer ball...no wonder I'm feeling big!) Lungs are starting to develop more and produce surfactant (as an RT, this makes me very happy :) )
Here's what baby looks like about now:
Welp, that's it for this month in regards to baby Jude (Oh yeah, we have an name!!!)
PS I painted my fingernails a really lovely pale purple for spring, and I am LOVING them...hence the title of this post :)
Well, I've put off posting much at all about my pregnancy. Every once in a while I'll make a facebook post about recent updates but I try not to too often. I remember how it felt when everyone around me was getting pregnant, and CONSTANTLY talking about it, while we were stuck trying and trying and trying. It was a jab in my heart every single time. A daily reminder of where I wanted to be but just wasn't. As a result, I've tried very hard to keep from doing the same things to dear friends of mine struggling with infertility in various forms.
On the other hand, I also want to relish in this precious time, and share some of the wonderful blessings I'm experiencing with my family and friends. I remember a few friends posting weekly surveys about how things have been progressing and I've decided to do the same, but much less frequent. This way, I have something I can look back on and *someday* show the little one too.
SO, here's my 24 (!!!!) week stats:
How far along: 24 weeks- the BIG milestone (not counting end of first trimester). From this point on, no matter what happens to me, in a major emergency, baby would likely be able to survive outside the womb!
Total Weight Gain: 8 pounds. I'm bummed...I didn't want to gain any weight. Why can't I have months of vomiting and weight loss like a normal pregnant person?
Stretchmarks: None that I've noticed...but I try not to look ;)
Sleep: Lots! I feel constantly exhausted, like I can never get enough sleep. I need lots of pillows these days to be nice and comfy
Best Moment This Week: Getting to see him again and know that he's a he for sure!
Movement: Finally started feeling movement from the outside a couple weeks ago, Chris got to feel Jude for the first time from the outside at about 22 1/2 weeks. I LOVE every little kick and squirm.
Gender: BOY!!!!
Labor Signs: Nada
Belly Button: Still in. Probably will be the whole way through, it was with Benton
What I Miss: Energy
What I am Looking Forward to: Starting to put the room together! I think we've FINALLY chosen bedding (after changing our minds AGAIN!) so I'm ready to get to work!
Milestones: Baby is now just over a pound and about a foot long (and my uterus is the size of a soccer ball...no wonder I'm feeling big!) Lungs are starting to develop more and produce surfactant (as an RT, this makes me very happy :) )
Here's what baby looks like about now:
Welp, that's it for this month in regards to baby Jude (Oh yeah, we have an name!!!)
PS I painted my fingernails a really lovely pale purple for spring, and I am LOVING them...hence the title of this post :)
Thursday, June 2, 2011
Another little update
Once again I find myself feeling the need to apologize for my lack of fun, quirky, or unique posts for my blog, time and inspiration have both been my enemy over the last two months. I do promise, however, a blog soon with pics of my kitchen revamp that is *oh so close* to completed! (And looking amazing, I might add) Also, once I'm a little farther in (and hopefully not as stiff as a board) an unbiased review of the "Insanity" workout program will be posted. For today, another quick update on the goings-on in the Jeska household.
My two year old (well 2 and 1 month) is potty trained!!!! *BIG SIGH OF RELIEF* Okay, so we are still using pull-ups because he has occasional accidents but, for the most part, he's been staying dry all day and night over the last several days. The best part? He practically trained himself! Seriously, other than remind him throughout the day to use the potty (and reward him when he did) I have had very little to do with his success. I am SO proud of my BIG BOY! Ahh, little successes like these make being a mom totally worth it.
And speaking of being a mom, there is finally some news on the baby making front. Good? Well...ehhh....depends on how you look at it. Not in the sense that I'm pregnant, but yes in the sense that we are finally on our way to answers. I saw my doctor today who has scheduled Chris and I for several tests over the next few weeks, and referred us to an infertility specialist. Not all these tests seem like they will be very fun, and seeing the diagnoses "infertility" written down on paper was definitely a punch in the gut, but it still feels so good to not just be sitting around playing the waiting game.
Chris is still doing well in Oklahoma, he had his first test in his non-radar module and got a 100%! He showed me what his test was going to be over and all I can say is, wow! There were so many numbers to memorize, I don't see how he did it, but I'm so proud of him that he did! We got to see him this last weekend while we were in Minnesota for a couple days. It was a short (and very busy) visit but of course I'll take what I can get.
Speaking of Minnesota, Benton and I had a great visit. It's always wonderful to be around family and friends. Chris's cousin Erin got married and the wedding was beautiful, she was a stunning bride. I can't believe how fast all our cousins on that side are growing up! The only downside was the 8 hour drive with gas around $3.75 per gallon, yuck! But, overall, worth every penny.
Welp, that's my update for tonight. I'll post more when I know more. Maybe. :)
My two year old (well 2 and 1 month) is potty trained!!!! *BIG SIGH OF RELIEF* Okay, so we are still using pull-ups because he has occasional accidents but, for the most part, he's been staying dry all day and night over the last several days. The best part? He practically trained himself! Seriously, other than remind him throughout the day to use the potty (and reward him when he did) I have had very little to do with his success. I am SO proud of my BIG BOY! Ahh, little successes like these make being a mom totally worth it.
And speaking of being a mom, there is finally some news on the baby making front. Good? Well...ehhh....depends on how you look at it. Not in the sense that I'm pregnant, but yes in the sense that we are finally on our way to answers. I saw my doctor today who has scheduled Chris and I for several tests over the next few weeks, and referred us to an infertility specialist. Not all these tests seem like they will be very fun, and seeing the diagnoses "infertility" written down on paper was definitely a punch in the gut, but it still feels so good to not just be sitting around playing the waiting game.
Chris is still doing well in Oklahoma, he had his first test in his non-radar module and got a 100%! He showed me what his test was going to be over and all I can say is, wow! There were so many numbers to memorize, I don't see how he did it, but I'm so proud of him that he did! We got to see him this last weekend while we were in Minnesota for a couple days. It was a short (and very busy) visit but of course I'll take what I can get.
Speaking of Minnesota, Benton and I had a great visit. It's always wonderful to be around family and friends. Chris's cousin Erin got married and the wedding was beautiful, she was a stunning bride. I can't believe how fast all our cousins on that side are growing up! The only downside was the 8 hour drive with gas around $3.75 per gallon, yuck! But, overall, worth every penny.
Welp, that's my update for tonight. I'll post more when I know more. Maybe. :)
Sunday, May 15, 2011
Jeska family update
Sorry I haven't posted a while, life get's crazy when you are "living" in two states at the same time!
Benton and I (and Isaac!) got to spend 8 days last week in OKC with Chris, and it was by far the most wonderful 8 days I've had in a long time. It was so great to just enjoy being together as a family again, and I LOVED having Chris get home from work every day almost 2 hours earlier than he used to! We spent lots of time at the lake, the library, and feeding the ducks in the neighborhood pond.
Everyone is asking how Chris is doing with his classes and I am so PROUD to say that he's doing GREAT! He just finished his first class with flying colors and only has 2 more "module" (classes) until he gets to come home in August. On every test he scored the class average or better (always an A) and had no problems with the final exam either.
He's very cautiously optomistic, on the day of his final for his first class he heard of a few students in the class ahead of them who were on their last day of the final module that failed the very last final exam and were sent packing. He said these were good students who had done well on all previous exams and, unfortunatly had just enough slip ups on the final to be told they no longer had a job! HOW SCARY! On the other hand, his teachers have told him that they think he will do great and get through OKC training just fine becuase he is such a hard working student. I know he can and will succeed. Like I said, I am just SO PROUD of him!
Benton is doing great too, I think we are going to start potty training round two in a couple weeks...eek! Not so excited about that, but looking forward to having that stage behind us. I LOVE seeing all the new things he's picked up in the last few months, such as coming to me to give me a big hug and a kiss out of the blue (without me even asking!), singing "Deep and Wide" (with the motions!) and saying "EWWW" when he has a dirty diper (can we say "time for potty training?")
As for me, I had a really rough patch in the weeks leading up to and following Easter, but I've been doing a little better since we went to OKC. It helps knowing we are already one month down. I've started casually looking at various adoption websites and blogs. While making that decision will not be anything that happens anytime soon (we are still going to try testing/treatments starting in August before we give up on getting pregnant again) it is already starting to intimidate me to think of all the things (including $20,000+ in costs) that go into that. If any of you know of any good resources send them my way!
Well, thats life for us in a (rather large) nutshell. Still wishing on a star and praying for some miracles!
Benton and I (and Isaac!) got to spend 8 days last week in OKC with Chris, and it was by far the most wonderful 8 days I've had in a long time. It was so great to just enjoy being together as a family again, and I LOVED having Chris get home from work every day almost 2 hours earlier than he used to! We spent lots of time at the lake, the library, and feeding the ducks in the neighborhood pond.
Everyone is asking how Chris is doing with his classes and I am so PROUD to say that he's doing GREAT! He just finished his first class with flying colors and only has 2 more "module" (classes) until he gets to come home in August. On every test he scored the class average or better (always an A) and had no problems with the final exam either.
He's very cautiously optomistic, on the day of his final for his first class he heard of a few students in the class ahead of them who were on their last day of the final module that failed the very last final exam and were sent packing. He said these were good students who had done well on all previous exams and, unfortunatly had just enough slip ups on the final to be told they no longer had a job! HOW SCARY! On the other hand, his teachers have told him that they think he will do great and get through OKC training just fine becuase he is such a hard working student. I know he can and will succeed. Like I said, I am just SO PROUD of him!
Benton is doing great too, I think we are going to start potty training round two in a couple weeks...eek! Not so excited about that, but looking forward to having that stage behind us. I LOVE seeing all the new things he's picked up in the last few months, such as coming to me to give me a big hug and a kiss out of the blue (without me even asking!), singing "Deep and Wide" (with the motions!) and saying "EWWW" when he has a dirty diper (can we say "time for potty training?")
As for me, I had a really rough patch in the weeks leading up to and following Easter, but I've been doing a little better since we went to OKC. It helps knowing we are already one month down. I've started casually looking at various adoption websites and blogs. While making that decision will not be anything that happens anytime soon (we are still going to try testing/treatments starting in August before we give up on getting pregnant again) it is already starting to intimidate me to think of all the things (including $20,000+ in costs) that go into that. If any of you know of any good resources send them my way!
Well, thats life for us in a (rather large) nutshell. Still wishing on a star and praying for some miracles!
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