Ever have one of those days when everything you do seems not good enough. Today was that day for me.
I slept in a little later than I would have liked, and putzed around the house a lot. Rather than getting housework done, I read and took a nap in the afternoon. Rather than a home cooked meal, all I had ready for Chris when he got home was mac and cheese and hot dogs. At the end of the day, I didn't feel like I was a good enough wife.
I let Benton wear play clothes all day rather than something cute. We didn't do anything fun like go to the park or play in his little swimming pool, instead we took it easy and played inside. We didn't work on colors or letters or numbers or sign language today. I made Benton stay in his crib for his whole naptime, rather than letting him come upstairs and play when he woke up early. Even though he fell back asleep before long, at the end of the afternoon I didn't feel like a good enough mom.
I had a friend text me and ask if I was free for lunch tomorrow. I told her that I would be sleeping since I work tonight and tomorrow night. After I turned her down, she told me she had a lot going on and just needed someone to sit down and talk to. Even though we made plans to meet later in the day before I go to work, I felt like I wasn't being a good enough friend.
I only walked the dogs once this morning, after that I was too busy (or lazy?) to find time to do it again before Chris got home, so they spent about 5 hours in their kennels. I wasn't a good enough pet owner today.
But all that being said, I did pray today. I loved with my whole heart today. I gave Benton more kisses than I could count today. I laughed today and told my husband I loved him today.
"Mister" (Fred) Rogers once said, "Some days, doing "the best we can" may still fall short of what we would like to be able to do, but life isn't perfect on any front-and doing what we can with what we have is the most we should expect of ourselves or anyone else."
Okay, Mister Rogers, I'll take your word for it.
Great post, Andrea! I needed to hear that!
ReplyDeleteYou are an amazing Mommy, wife, and friend -- don't let the enemy tell you anything otherwise! I have days like this too, but at the end of the day just remember that tomorrow is a new day and you can just try and do better. Plus, it sounds like you were simply exhausted, so you probably need more days like this anyways!!
ReplyDeletePS, Mac 'n cheese and hot dogs are yummy!! :)