Friday, November 26, 2010

Happy Thanksgiving!

Well, it's a day late but I can't get through November without a shout out blog to all my readers about the many reasons I'm thankful this year!
First and formost, of course I am thankful for my family. Every morning, instead of an alarm clock I wake up to a little boy singing to me through his monitor, or chatting away (in jibberish) about his dreams and I can't help but say a prayer of thanks for him. Life has thrown us a few curveballs this year, but I don't think Chris and I have ever been closer, which is an amazing feeling. Even five years after meeting him I still learn new things and fall more in love.

Our trip to Minnesota last week reminded me of how lucky I am to have in-laws that I absolutly adore, that have supported us for the last three years. And, it reminded me of how thankful I am to not be living in that God forsaken fridged cold weather again this winter!

My parents arrived on Wednesday and reminded me how thankful I am for the way that they have raised me, with strong values and a bunch of love! And I'm thankful that I inherited some good cooking skills from somewhere up in the gene pool!
I have to work tonight, which makes me thankful that I've found a career I love, but that still allows me to be home with Benton every day and feel like a stay at home mom! I'm thankful that every need has been provided for, and a lot of non-needs as well! I'm a little sad that the big day is over, but Christmas is on the way! Oh, and THANKS for reading my blog :)

Saturday, November 20, 2010

Christmas Cards

If you know me, you know I LOVE LOVE LOVE Christmas. Hands down, favorite time of year. You also may know that I spend between 4-6 weeks before Christmas scoping out ideas of what to do for our family Christmas card/letter. I've been browsing the various photo printing websites to see who has the cutest cards this year, and I've found several cards that I'm kinda in love with. However, once I had decided on our outfits for this year, it was easy to pick a winner for our photo cards. I can't show which one it is, because that would take away the fun of sending them out. So instead, I'll show you some runner ups (all from Shutterfly.com)

Cute, eh? Well, it's a relief to finally have a decision made. Good luck in your search for the perfect holiday card!
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Monday, November 15, 2010

Turkey Day Recipes!!!

Well once again, the inner planner in me has sprung to the surface in an effort to once again make this the best Thanksgiving ever. I always start my meal planning early for the holidays when I'm the one hosting. I try to figure out what items I can cook in the slow cooker, what will work just as well on stove top, and what I have to try to squeeze into my oven at 350 degrees while the turkey cooks. This year will be a meal for 7, so I'm hoping my menu is a crowd pleaser:
Hors D'oeuvres: (served from 10 am until meal time)
Fruit platter with fruit dip
Meat and cheese tray
Deviled eggs
Turkey time: (2:30 pm)
Michigander Style Turkey with Wild Rice Stuffing
Slow cooker mashed potatoes
Candied Yams
Creamy Green Bean casserole
Homemade rolls
*Possibly a jello salad, still undecided (Every year I try a cranberry dressing/sauce and it never gets eaten, so I'm giving up on that)
Dessert: (5:00 pm)
Pumpkin pie
Peanut butter pie
I always like to try one or two new recipes for the holiday, because I usually end up keeping at least one around for the following year. I figure if I keep at it for long enough I'll eventually have a set of recipes that are tried and true without being old and boring. Now I being the task of building my timeline for the night before and day of to ensure that everything gets finished at exactly the same time so it's all hot and fresh  right as we sit down to say grace.
If you are looking for a few new recipes for this Thanksgiving (or Christmas), these are the two I tried last year and have added to the Jeska household tradition:
Wild Rice Stuffing
*You will not believe this stuff, I think it is by far the best stuffing I have ever had in my entire life!* (for 18 lb turkey)
-3 c hot water
-6 tsp chicken bouillon (I use that paste that comes in a little tub, it is way better than the dry stuff)
-9 oz wild rice (I used a mix of long grain and wild rice)
-3/4 c butter
-1 1/2 c chopped celery
-1/2 c chopped onion
-6 oz dry bread cubes (I use those ones the grocery stores sell in the bakery this time of year)
-1 tbsp poultry seasoning
1. Dissolve 4 tsp bouillon in half the water over medium heat. Add rice and just enough cold water to ensure rice is covered with water. Bring to a boil then reduce heat and simmer 25 min, stirring occasionally.
2. Add remaining bouillon to 1 1/2 c water. Heat butter in skillet until melted. Add celery and onion and cook until tender. Add bouillion water and cook a few more minutes. Pour into large bowl and mix with bread, rice and poultry seasoning. (If you are preparing the night before, this is where you stop for the night)
3. Stuff turkey loosely and cook turkey as you would with any other type of stuffing.

Creamy Green Bean Casserole
(Notice: this is not yo mammas green bean casserole, so if you want the old version with cream of mushroom soup, just look on the back of the can!!!
  • 2 tablespoons butter
  • 2 tablespoons all-purpose flour
  • 1 teaspoon salt
  • 1 teaspoon white sugar
  • 1/4 cup onion, diced
  • 1 cup sour cream
  • 3 (14.5 ounce) cans French style green beans, drained
  • 2 cups shredded Cheddar cheese
  • 1/2 cup french fried onions
  1. Preheat oven to 350 degrees
  2. Melt 2 tablespoons butter in a large skillet over medium heat. Stir in flour until smooth, and cook for one minute. Stir in the salt, sugar, onion, and sour cream. Add green beans, and stir to coat.
  3. Transfer the mixture to a 2 1/2 quart casserole dish. Spread shredded cheese over the top. In a small bowl, toss together french fried onions and sprinkle over the cheese.
  4. Bake for 30 minutes in the preheated oven, or until the top is golden and cheese is bubbly.

Saturday, November 13, 2010

washed up

Remember this typical film scenario?
An experienced sailor takes his boat out to sea. The weather forecast is far from promising but he's sure it's nothing he can't handle. He sails right into the eye of the storm and, as luck would have it, his boat is torn apart by the rough waters. Miraculously, he manages to find a piece of driftwood and clings to it for dear life. The next scene opens with the sailor waking up, washed onto shore with the tide slowly drifting away.
That's the best way I can describe my week this week. For the most part I go through life feeling pretty confident in my faith. I know I have room to grow but I also know I can stand firm in my beliefs when asked what my life is all about. Monday the storm hit. The news of Chris's job falling through was a blow to my faith, and I began to doubt if I knew what I was doing anymore. But an amazing thing happened. Within minutes of posting my latest blog, some of my dearest friends and family began to send little pieces of driftwood my way. Little words of encouragement, posts showing empathy, and messages of love began to fill up my phone, my Facebook inbox, and my "wall." Even friends I haven't talked to in several months called just to offer a listening ear. It took me a couple days, but I finally washed up onto shore. I'm not quite sailing yet, but I have my feet back underneath me and I'm standing on solid ground. I still don't understand the "why's" but I've come back to a point where I can accept that the plan isn't for me to know yet.
I just wanted to say thanks to every single one of you who read my blog this week and shared a little bit of your heart with me. You have blessed me and I can't put into words how much the things you said meant to me.
"We think having faith means being convinced God exists in the same way we are convinced a chair exists. People who cannot be completely convinced of God’s existence think faith is impossible for them. Not so. People who doubt can have great faith because faith is something you do, not something you think. In fact, the greater your doubt the more heroic your faith."

Monday, November 8, 2010

There goes that idea...

I think my heart is breaking. Literally. It's aching. To be real with you, I feel like God keeps letting me down and I'm starting to doubt how much he really cares. I mean, I have said 100 times that I trust him and he knows what's best. And maybe he does know what's best, but I'm having a hard time believing today that he wants to give us whats best. Or maybe he is giving me what's best but I don't know how to recieve it. Maybe trust is this huge ability that I don't have anymore. Maybe I never really had it. Either way, today I'm mad at God. I'm mad becuase I feel like he's holding back on us, and I just don't understand why. I bet most of you out there reading this are wanting to say to me "it's not up to you to "understand" " or "you'll understand in His timing" but I don't want to hear that today, becuase I've been telling myself that for so long now. And really, does it help?
So you're probably wondering where all this is coming from. Today we found out that Chris will not be going to Oklahoma City at the end of this month to start his new job after all. A little background for those of you who have no clue what I'm talking about: 3 years ago Chris applied for a job as an Air Traffic Controller with the FAA. He interviewed in May  of 2008 and passed all of his testing except his color vision exam. Fast-forward to last spring: Chris took a newer color vision test and passed. He's been in contact with the FAA over the last several months and was told in July  he would be starting his training in Oklahoma City for the new position on the 30th of this month. Last week he put in his notice at his current job and reserved his new apartment in OKC. He has been working on getting his drug screen and medcial clearence redone since they are considered out of date by the FAA since they were last performed in 2008. Today he got an e-mail from one of the people he has been working with stating that he is not actually scheduled for the Nov 30th class after all becuase he doesn't have all of these things up to date right now.  (Even though he's been trying to get them done since August but they just a couple weeks ago sent him all the info he needed to get them scheduled.) So now, she has him "pencil-ed in" for early summer.
And now you're thinking "big deal," he has to wait a few months. And I probably should be thinking that too. But instead I'm thinking, WHY? When I thought we were finally going to get to a point where we could stop living paycheck to paycheck and start putting money in savings and really paying off our studnet loans. I thought we were finally going to be able to plan a vacation and be able to go out to eat without checking our budget first. I feel like I have so many friends who have it made, and since Chris and I got married it's been a struggle (financially speaking, that is). Yes, I probably should just be thankful we have enough to pay our mortgage and buy grocries and gas for the car but I guess I'm just not. I know that some of it is our fault, choosing private schools and being unwise with credit cards our first year of marriage. When we found out Chris was going to be starting this new job at the end of the month I felt like God was finally saying "Look, I am providing for you like I promised" and now I feel like God is saying "NOT!"
Chris keeps saying this is Gods way of asking us to trust him. But today I'm saying I can't. I don't have any trust left. I've beeng trying. For 3 years I've been trying to trust him with our finances. For the last 9 months I've been trying to trust him with our desire to have another child. And I feel like he keeps throwing these things back in our faces in so many ways and saying "Yeah, I'm giving your friends all these things but not you." For whatever reason. I guess they are more deserving. Maybe it's because they have more faith. They already learned the lessons God's trying to teach us I guess.
Well, I'm tired of this lesson. I'm ready for a new one.

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

Dieting on the brain

In honor of my new diet, I've found a few motivational quotes to keep me going when I'm feeling ready to give up and eat a Big Mac or to make me laugh when all I want to do is vomit after an intense workout. Enjoy! (PS, I'm starting with my very favorite!)

The older you get, the tougher it is to lose weight, because by then your body and your fat are really good friends.  ~Author Unknown

More die in the United States of too much food than of too little.  ~John Kenneth Galbraith, The Affluent Society
You won't fail if you're not perfect, you'll fail if you're not committed to improving yourself slightly each day.

It's okay to be fat.  So you're fat.  Just be fat and shut up about it.  ~Roseanne Barr

I have a great diet.  You're allowed to eat anything you want, but you must eat it with naked fat people.  ~Ed Bluestone

Monday, November 1, 2010

Welcome, Holiday Season!!!

So it's been quite a while since I've blogged, not really becuase I've been too busy but more becuase I've had nothing too exciting to blog about.
Halloween was yesterday (Amazing day, amazing Halloween party, btw, and Benton was the cutest little monkey you could possibly imagine) which means today marks the beginning of the holiday season! I have a few "Happy Harvest" decorations still up until the day after Thanksgiving, but I did swap out my fall wreath for my beautiful new Christmas wreath and took down all the orange and black stuff and will soon be replacing it with greens and reds and silvers and golds! I also switched the alarm clock over to a Christmas station, no more talk radio for the next two months. (Can you tell yet that this is my absolute favorite time of year?) I'm also almost halfway done Christmas shopping! I'm even farther ahead of where I was at this time last year! So, November is starting out pretty amazing.
The only somewhat downside of November 1 today? Chris and I started a new diet. I did Slim4Life 3 years ago just before our wedding and lost a lot of weight. Unfortunatly, my *cough* excellent cooking skills along with our love for eating out has landed Chris and I in a place where we both have some pounds to lose so we are going on the diet again. Our ultimate goals are to get back to the weights we each were at our wedding, however I also have a halfway goal becuase I feel like I have a LONG ways to go! The first two days are lots of protien, green leafy veggies, and 4 oranges a day. I am already craving a huge pizza. It doesn't help that I have all this Halloween candy left from when Benton went trick-or-treating last night and don't know what to do with it.
So here's to a month of big changes. More about them to come later...